Walking in a Winter Wonderland....

yesterday Sean and I went on a very long walk in our new neighborhood to explore it a little bit...one thign that we have discovered is that there are many rabbits that live around us because we see their footprints in the snow....I needed to go out and be in the big embrace of nature as I feel a little cabin fever creeping up on me because we have gone through such a cold snap here...I am going to try and get out a little every day, just to set foot into nature and let her speak to my soul...when we were walking, we saw a crow flying over head crying "Caw! Caw!" and I imiitated it....Sean wanted to follow it, he kept asking for the "kaka" which I giggled about..I said it went to find a place to take a nap, since it was close to Sean's naptime...when we got home, I was in the kitchen making lunch and sean went and got his blanket and started to walk out the door to go outside, declaring he was going to sleep with the "kaka"...smile....sigh...that is what it is all about....in other ways, i feel a little dry emotionally...I feel tired, crabby, a little PMS-y, everyone is getting on my nerves....I need to turn inward for awhile...it is hard living with another adult who wants your time when you already have to split it between 4 boys...I can handle the boys, it is the adult where it gets sticky...I think I have a case of Senior-itis too..I start school this weekend...a very intense trimester for me and I am not happy to be going back..I just want to be done with school and on with my life..i want to work with kids and develope relationships...oh well, soon I will be done..does this sound like whining? it is..I know...just be glad you were not my kids this morning...they got earfuls...sigh why can't i be a perfect parent instead of a moody crabby mom? I hate starting our days where we bicker...one good thing gave me hope and a reminding that higher forces shape our world...that is we had a beautiful sunrise...red, gold, and yellow...I am thankful for that..maybe I will start meditation again...